You Can Do This
When you come to know the truth, and your spouses secrets are now out in the open, your mind will try to make sense of it all. And it will do it's best to seek out safety. You go into survival mode, and you think you need to "figure it all out." This is common, and can be stressful on mind, body, and soul. I get it. I understand.
The road ahead seems impossible. And yet, something inside still hopes. Just know you do NOT need to figure everything out. Not in this moment or even the next. Simply come back to breath... your body...and feel your way through. Ask what is my one next best step. Moment to moment is sometimes all we can manage, and that is ok. You are ok. Right now.