Fear-Less

"Nothing in life is to be feared, but understood. Now is the time to understand more, so that we may fear less." ~Marie Curie

I can more easily recognize fear when it shows up in my life and not be pummeled by the all too familiar thoughts and judgements that flood my mind. And yet, there still are days when fear sneaks in unexpectedly. Like today...I was caught off guard at 7am this morning. An unexpected messenger came to the door. A few words were exchanged and then he was gone. Once things sank in, the barrage of fiery darts came at me one right after the other. One hit my gut which triggered a sense of powerlessness. Another my heart that left me feeling vulnerable. And the third hit my mind and triggered old stories. It felt like I was being struck from every angle. I felt alone, weak, tired and unprotected. I took a deep breath and tears streamed my face.

"Keep breathing," I told myself. "What you are feeling will pass.”

I sent a friend a text simply asking, "Please pray." She was able to bear witness to and provide space. There was no judgement. No questions. Just love, grace, and compassion. Peace entered, and I felt more centered. And from a calm and clear space, I came back to what is true.

I AM ROOTED AND GROUNDED - FEAR HAS NO POWER HERE

From there, my next steps became clear. I allowed myself time to integrate and gave myself permission to change up my day, in order to rest and recoup rather than get lost in my long to do list. I gave myself permission to let go...and let God.